I’m going to cheat....so sue me. :P
I believe everyone enters a person’s life for a reason. No matter how long, or short, the amount of time is there is a reason as to why they have entered.
My choices are:
LadyKrystalynDarkstar-
She has taught me so much with our friendship. There are so many things that come to mind when I think of her. I admire her for the strength she has in her faith. It’s helped her overcome trials in her life and made her a better and stronger person.
She’s helped me realized that it’s okay to see the good in people. I’ve watched her struggle with things, but she always has a kind word or goes out of her way to help someone. She’s listened to me when I’ve cried, when I’ve laughed and when I’ve been on the brink of insanity. She’s always pulled me through. My life wouldn’t be the same without her.
Ducky (Niflheim)-
I admire her strength and the love that she gives. I see how much she loves her son and it makes my heart soar. I know that she would do anything she could for her little man, and I can’t help but wish more people were like that. She is a wonderful and beautiful person whose love is unconditional and pure. She might fall but she gets right back up again and faces the challenge with gumption and perseverance. She is beautifully imperfect and wonderfully her.
?- This one is just because I need to write it.
There is something about our friendship, and you, that gives me comfort when things are rough. You just have a way of making me laugh and forget. We connect on a level that just… is. We’ve had a new rough spots, but our friendship was worth the swallowing of pride to say I am sorry. The moments I can catch a glimpse into your life are special to me in ways that I cannot describe. You are special to me along with your friendship. I savor it like the delicious taste of a sweet honeybun.
Changes are in the air and decisions need to be made.
I need to figure out what I want to do with my life. I have to live for me. Even though I say that, I doubt I'll heed my own advice.
My dad and his girlfriend have ended. I knew the change was coming. She and I talked and I know why she did it. I am not mad nor am I spiteful towards her, I know the issues at hand. I am hurt and sad because I might lose a family that I enjoyed immensely, but then again I may not. She still wants me in her life and her family. I am still considering it. Time will tell.
I need to figure out my next plan of action.
I am thinking on whether I want to look into a place (I am not sure where) and move. I think if that's the case maybe I should just move some place totally new, different and start anew. It is a scary thought with some of the things I have/had faced, but I need to realistically think of every possible option.
This is going to be another phase in my journey. I need to sit, think and figure things out. I just hope my mind and heart leads me into the right place.
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♥
♥ ::hug:: ♥
That's really good that you're on good terms even though she's taking steps to take care of herself.
Sitting and thinking is very important. May I also recommend an orgasm? Clears the mind.
Are you offering to give me one, Morri? ;)
I get ta watch.
I had something very heartwarming, encouraging and positive to say, and then Morri said something about an orgasm, and well, now you just get: "o.O"
Hah I'm always willing to lend a hand but the statement is true!
This is what it looks like when someone borrows your avatar and then checks out your stuff and then you check it out and then you try to figure out what the hell is going on.....
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This got very confusing. I had to take it down. Not that I mind looking like you .... but you know... yeah.
LOOOOL
HOLY HELL!
:D
LOL!!
This is the picture I was working on.
Not too shabby for not picking up a pencil in well over 9 or so years.
There are a few things I hate about it.
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Nice work!
Great job! :)
I totally get what you mean when you say you hate parts of it. I get like that too when I paint.
But you know.....this is really really good. I love the eyes especially and the hair.
I like the style :D
Tanks guys. :D
Cool.
I LIKE this piece. :)
This is so cool! It has that voodoo/Day of the Dead vibe about it.
Fear.
It is not something I very often admit. However I do fear. There isn’t a time that goes by that I don’t get fearful that I will lose the memory of you. That I will not remember the way you smelled, the way you made everything better and the way your hair curled when it got too long. I fear that I won’t remember the lines etched in your face and the smile you always wore no matter how bad the moments seemed.
I fear that as I get older, I'll just simply forget.
I found a few pictures of you today. I stared at them with mixtures of love, longing and sadness. I looked at your eyes and seen my eyes, I looked at your smile and seen my smile and I looked at you and seen everything I want to be.
Even after all these years it still hurts. There are times it hurts more than others, but the pain is still around all the time.
I don’t think anyone has, or fully will, move on from the loss of you. There are times I just want to scream because the pain won’t stay buried.
I remember sitting on the couch with you and just talking. I know you knew you were going to die, but you just didn’t know when. I never wanted to think about it. I still don’t, but I do. I am scared I’ll forget the little things. I am terrified I will forget the big things.
It seems like so many things unraveled after you left. It’s like you were the string that held the family together. Now they hand like unraveled twine. It doesn’t matter what is done to keep it together, it always seems to fall apart.
All I ever wanted to do was make you proud of me. I wanted you always to be proud of the beliefs you instilled in me and the daughter that you molded. There are times when I sit here and I wonder if you would be proud of me. I’ve handled everything in life the best that I could, but there are times when I feel that it wasn’t enough. I feel like in ways I have let you down and with doing that I in turn let myself down.
I feel that if you were to look at me now, I’d be a disappointment. There are so many things you wanted for me that I know I will never have.
I know I never want to forget you. I know that I hold on to things as much as I shouldn’t. The clothes still in the attic and your purse left the same way it was all those years ago. I still have your old favorite nightgown in my drawer. I know its materialistic stuff. I know that you are not coming back to wear it again. No matter how hard I pray for it to happen, I know it won’t.
I wish I could have taken that picture in to that lawyer that represented the bastard that did this. I wish I could have slammed it down on the table and yelled at him, “Do you see this woman?! Do you see the smile on her face and the life in her eyes? This was my mother. This is what you took from me, her sisters, my father and the rest of our family. I hope this image haunts you every night. Because you chose to make a decision that was wrong, her light was extinguished forever. My mother is gone, is DEAD because of what you ‘thought’ was the proper thing. I wish you’d be the one to hear her screams and not me every night. But that’s not the way it is. I hope your soul rots because of what you did. And I hope this bastard that represents you rots as well.”
But I couldn’t and I still can’t. The most I can do is just wonder and fear that I’ll start to forget.
Sometimes I still ask why, but I know I’ll never have the answer.
God, I miss you, mom. I wish the tears I cried while writing this would cleanse the hurt, but they never do. They just remind me about how much I hate to cry since you’re not here to make it better.
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:' ( damn... holds you!
*hugs*
I know there really aren't any words. I wish I could hug you or fart and tell a bad joke and make you laugh.
*hugs and cries with*
*hugs*
I need to work on my drawing today. I got wrapped up in doing something in photoshop and neglected it for the past few days.
I wish I had space for painting and sculpting.
Well I should say I room that I wouldn't have to clean all the time. lol
It's not wonder why you are so fucking miserable. You are just a miserable person. Ever realize that most things around you are shitty and that you turn them to shit? I guess you wouldn't because nothing can be your fault. Oh boo whoo you. I'd rather just sit and act like a victim instead of getting off my ass and doing something.
God, you are pathetic.
The world doesn't revolve around you. And if it did... I am sure the suicide rate would be a lot higher.
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You know what I luvs about you? The way you just hold back, keep everything bottled in.
NOT!
:D
I might have had a drink because I came here, forgot who's journal I was reading and thought it was mine.
I was trying to figure out why I wrote this...
I can't help but bottle up my emotions. -shifty eyes-
hahahah Morri.
I didn't know you've suddenly turned into the blond headed girl with tons of stuff in her boobs. :P
I can't see how someone with a mental illness can join this site and stay for as long as they do.
:P
O.o
What am I missing? (...other than my mind)
*claps*
Point of reference Moonie- the world does revolve around me and I am flawless and faultless...and no Bones, no mental concern other than the professionally determined "denial" issue. Where is the liquor?
Okay, I keep seeing this little rule in a lot of places.. 'we don't deal with drama' or something to that extent. Seriously? How does this work when there has been tons of drama surrounding the person who runs the place? If you yourself are dramatic and drama follows you everywhere because you are always in it.. doesn't that mean that...well.. It's going to surround you there too?
Seriously.....
That rule in some places is just so damn pointless.
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i'm sorry i'm such a drama whore but i just can't help it i just can't live without drama
You said a mouthful smexy Moonie!
I wasn't kidding when I said I was artistically dirty last night.
This is my hand and my arm after a few hours of drawing.
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Oh look, the makeup is wearing off! You really are.... Purple. :P
LOL!
I am... you wanna taste of purple passion? ;)
SEEE?? You really IS a dirty ho....
:D
Shame on you- posting dirty photos of yourself. ;)
So had my hopes up. lol
When do we get pics of the final product?
As soon as I finish I'll put up pics of the final.
I have to shade it and mess around with a few things.
Arms covered in pencil dust.
Face smudged with excess from my fingers and concentration.
It feels so good to draw again. It feels wonderful to have the pencil fly over the paper as the lines start to form and the image takes shape
To be artistically dirty and enjoy every minute of the creation.
To erase, start again, erase and start again.
I feel like I've been reacquainted with an old friend.
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If we had a Like button like on Facebook, I would be pushing it. :)
♥ I am so glad. Creating is such a lovely thime!
Okay, I seriously do not understand all the e-relationships around this joint. Yes, I have had one from here years ago.
What I don't get is this-
There are numerous people who have some love affair with someone they are never going to meet. And I mean NEVER. Yet, they sit here and have some devotion to someone online. How can you seriously be committed to someone you are not going to meet? Hell, how can you even be seriously committed to someone without meeting them?
I get some people actually DO meet and they decide it's for them. But those people actually meet.
I get liking someone from a distance. I've liked people from a distance. I don't get how people can say they are in total and utter love when they've never been been in the same room together. AND most this time it happens within two weeks of talking. What THE HELL?
I just never understood that. I KNOW there are people from here that have meet there significant other from certain sites, but it just seems like anytime I see it from here it's always the same person in an e-relationship, with their e-love of their life and they are going to move to be with them, and then it never happens and two weeks later they are with someone else.
It's like watching a game of musical e-love. When the music stops you are in a relationship with whomever you are near!
Don't get it. Not at all.
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I'm gonna sit next to YOU. ::pulls the plug on the record player::
heh. :P
its cheaper then real relationshipŝ and real commitement, if it don't work you only loose e-heart and e-money and whatever "e" you had invested
now now Requiem don't be selfish, you know everyone will sit all around Moonie when you pull the plug it will end up in a e-orgy or e-poligamy relation lol
Now THAT, I'd like to see! E-Polygamy.
Is there a sign-up sheet?
It definitely helps to take it slow. So many people don't do that. When you're becoming interested in a person online, wait to form a relationship until you can meet in person.
You can't log off of a relationship. Meeting someone online may work for you, but there is a big difference between having a relationship online and having a relationship in person.
meeting new people online makes it easyer....... fall in love via online... i agree, not happening. makes banner..... meet to person, face to face. THEN you got a relationship. not before.
It's like watching a game of musical e-love. When the music stops you are in a relationship with whomever you are near!
LOL! I agree...talk about a topic that makes absolutely NO sense to me at all...!
Whenever I see your dirty house on cam, I get this look on my face.
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LMFAOOOOOOOOO!!!!
Amazing shot of you darling.
LMFAO!!!!! :P
heheh you look hot though
Rawr! ♥
I want to hop on webcam after making my house look dirty and messy and invite you in - just to see your face on YOUR webcam!
... But I can't NOT make my bed and neaten my house every morning.
LOL!
Well...I make my bed and neaten my place every morning AND when I get back home after work. I am THAT anal retentive, I'm afraid.
Spineless and Ignorant.
You cannot sit there and claim one thing when everything around you points in the opposite direction. No, you are not. No, you never have been and it's clear that you are never going to be.
Stop sitting there and trying to place the blame on others. Take a look in the mirror and realize "Hey, I am a screw up. I make/made shitty choices and I am probably still going to make those shitty choices because I can't stop being around shitty people."
I've never trusted you. NEVER.
I've seen your type all the time.
I see the not wanting to get involved so I'll play silent and just egg on the situation from afar so I can still be a part of it and no one will ever be the wiser. Yeah, No.
I've seen the shit you pulled in the past and that was a damn good show of who you really are. I thought maybe.. maybe it was a fluke, but after other things I've seen... No.. you're just spineless.
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Uh oh, is she back again?
IF she is, it was an even dumber choice to come back.
P.S.
I adore you! ♥
No, she isn't back.
This is about well it could describe a few people that have I have in mind.
Who needs me to cuttabish?
Sometimes I am so glad I have no clue what half the rants I read are about. Sometimes, I want to be SO NOSY and say, "WHO WHO WHO WHO?!"
Wow.. I totally feel... violent.
Like I could seriously just punch someone in the face and laugh.
Actually not just someone, but a few people that just need to be punched in the face because.. well.. they just need it.
I need an outlet for my anger.
And screw anger management!
I am in a funk. I've become so bored with most of the things I do. I need a new chapter in my life, but I don't know what or how to start that new chapter. I don't even know what it would include, I just know that I need something different.
I feel restless again.
I feel like I want to branch out and meet people.
But then again do I really?
After seeing how some people really are, trust is so hard. After being stole from, lied to and then taken advantage of, its not just easy.
And then I start to think..'maybe you should start to date again." And then the experience of dating the guy last year comes back into mind and I shudder.
Maybe I should start drawing again.
bah. I had these feelings.
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Don't make me go *straight edge* on yo ass.
I kinda' feel the same way right now; work and school keeps me busy enough so that I haven't really pondered on meeting people, dating, etc.
Drawing sounds good!
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imagesinwords
05:41 Nov 28 2011
Awesome :) It's good to be able to share how you feel about people. And it's good for the rest of us to read it, and know.
MooniePie
05:52 Nov 28 2011
It is nice to be able to express how you feel about people. It was so hard to do because each person that surrounds me, they do for reasons that I admire them for.
And with saying that- Thank you for being you, Images. :)
LadyKrystalynDarkstar
06:55 Nov 28 2011
*scuffs feet* awww shucks ....twernt nuthin
♥ I love you ♥
MooniePie
06:56 Nov 28 2011
♥ I love you too ♥
VW39
23:22 Nov 28 2011
They both make my life better, knowing them. :) As do you bunnie.
MooniePie
23:55 Nov 28 2011
I feel the same way about you, Rattie. ♥
Everyone that I spend time with enriches my life or gives me a life lesson. I don't know what I would do without those things. They've shaped me into the person I've become and becoming.
It was super fun to do this, but when you actually sat down to do it, that's when you realize just how hard it was to choose.
braindead66
04:00 Nov 29 2011
I love honey buns mmmmmmmm
Niflheim
06:36 Nov 29 2011
Have I told you yet today that I simply adore, cherish, and loves you?
Cause I totally do, my fluffy bunneh.
♥
:)